i'm fixing my embarrassment.

this past weekend, i attempted to "fix" my embarrassment. in the end, you can say, that the baby still won.

friday: we put him to sleep and put him in his crib. in 1o minutes, he awoke. he looked around and was like, 'where the heck am i?' he wasn't going back to bed unless he was in our's. so i picked him up and put him to sleep in our bed. when i thought he was sound asleep, which took about 15 minutes, i put him back in his crib. he woke up again and looked at me like he demanded he be put back in our bed. i didn't know how many times this was going to take and i didn't want to find out so i gave up at least for now and put him back in our bed and went to sleep. usually these days he sleeps through the night, but i thought i'd wake him at 1 am and feed him. my goal was to make him full and knock him out that he wouldn't know where he was. this i succeeded at. i put him in his crib at 1:30 and he slept till 5:30. he then woke up and was wondering where he was. i was too tired to try to put him back to sleep in his crib, so i put him in our bed again and went to sleep for another hour till it was a new day.

saturday: at 9:30 i put him to sleep and put him in his crib. he actually slept there. he woke up a few times but was dazed. i didn't want him to completely wake up so i would give him his binkie. this would put him back to sleep. i did this about 6 times throughout the course of the night. i decided to wake up again at 1 to feed him. i didn't want to give him reason to wake up. after i fed him, i put him back in his crib and again he slept. i thought things were going good until i heard a babble. it was 3:30 and i looked in his crib. he was wide awake and was playing. i tried to put him back to bed, but he wasn't going to. i wasn't going to be playing with him in the middle of the night so i put him in our bed and immediately he fell asleep.

friday night he slept for 4 hours in his crib. saturday he slept for 6 hours. i've almost succeeded but here comes the weekday. i don't know if i can do this during the work week. i've had the luxury of taking naps with him during the day because it's the weekend, but i won't be able to come the weekday. this weekend will be a waste if i don't continue to attempt to sleep him in his crib.