crumbling.

ga-we.
sitting ghost.
sleep paralysis.

whatever it's called. i've never experienced it. lil' TIT says not to even mention it in fear that i may be jinxing myself. i say whatevers. my life is a living ga-we.

paralyzed in my emotions.
there is no control.
i cannot change what life brings me.
i can only accept it.
for this is my destiny.
rage. sorrow. fear. pride.
i've tried.
how can i make you see?
that you are important to me.