everything's gonna be alright.

my heart's beating so fast i can't think straight.
i try to be as logical, calm, and positive as i can.
i have people beside me almost wishing for the worst.
i cry at night when i finally lose my mind and succumb to the thoughts that have been influencing me.
"what will i do?"
i keep busy until there's an answer.
i can't do anything until then, anyway.
does it mean i just don't care?
how could i not?
do i have to worry about whether they think i care or not?
can you believe this?
i have to worry about this above everything else.
JUST CALM DOWN.